Lockdown Christmas pt.5

the kids squeal and run off to the tree

it is quite beautiful –
i detach my lens and assume this is when it’s going to go out
right when i decide to leave

right when i turn my back to walk out
the glow will snap shut
the reflections in the store windows will vanish
and the kids will audibly groan, but we just got here

but it never does

Lockdown Christmas: pt.4

i eventually give up,
defeated by boredom, by cold,
by power,
an incorrectly set timer, defeated by
city government, the parks department
turning on me at last! et tu!
by bureaucracy
failing to do the simplest task
of turning off the lights when the park closes
or worse, deciding to leave it on!

for who?

apparently for these two kids, age 6 or 7 ish
who come barreling into the park just as i am packing up
with their
tiny mother trailing, curious about my camera
curious about me bent sad over it
in the shadow of the tree, the unvanquished tree,
christmas, undefeated still!

Lockdown Christmas: pt. 3

on my way home i stop by the small park by the subway
to shoot some b roll
of the christmas tree the city put up

there are some feral cats about
darting in and out of the hedges
casting disorienting shadows as they go

waiting to get a shot of the lights going out
they’re supposed to go out at 9

but it’s now approaching 9:05 and i’m
still waiting for this shot, who knows why

i don’t even know what point i’d be trying to make
i’m not trying to be dramatic, or negative,
it just seemed like a cool image
or whatever the 4D version of an image is,
a sequence of images, depicting some change

Lockdown Christmas: a short film

A few weeks ago we were asked to submit a pre-recorded piece for our friend Dalton Deschain’s Third Annual Honda Days Christmas Spectacular show. There were many ways to approach this – read something from the new book, play an old Joe Yoga song, gather up the usual suspects for some collaboration, etc. But we decided we wanted to do something entirely new.

We walked around the neighborhood shooting footage of the various Christmas goings-on in Astoria, and later sat down by the old window to collect our thoughts in writing. What eventually emerged was a story of Lockdown Christmas, and we put together this short film to document it. It went over great at the Honda Days show, and we’re happy to share it with you here.


It’s been an insane year, obviously, and all we can hope for our readers is to remain healthy and safe. We hope you are managing, we hope you are able to reach out to friends and loved ones and we hope you are finding reasons to be optimistic when you look for them.

Lockdown Christmas: pt. 2

lockdown christmas isn’t out
and about, but in the windows
above, a present peeking out
from a tear in the wrapping

i scan the rite aid shelves
for things we may need

lockdown christmas
indeed, in the makeshift alleyway
of plastic nets
and rows of trees
and the bitter wind
don’t fight it

i can always find myself out to sea
on a night like this, if i like

my gaze is straight ahead
but everything else is free
to do as it please

Lockdown Christmas pt.1

lockdown christmas was just an idea
caught in a draft
from one mountain to another
like all others

tonight of all nights
the moon continues its waning
but we’re not the only ones
under that impression

outside for a quiet walk
the black night is managed
with brute force

the slap of workers stacking pallets
echoes, turns heads

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decided i am powered
and it’s impossible to tell
who’s at what point

watching for visitors
is my new full time job
dreaming of chaos in the air
and fighting the urge to run towards it


FROM THE NEW MIXTAPE “Extreme Christmas” by LA SUDAR available everywhere Dec 24 2020